All throughout high school, I was very comfortable and confident in everything I was doing. I was certain that I wanted to be a thrower on the track team, I was positive that I loved my calculus classes, and I was comfortable with my readiness to graduate. Now that I have reached the college campus, some things are not always certain anymore.
There are obvious differences in college life such as class times, connections with professors, and frequently turning to cups of easy mac at 2 am. However one of the bigger differences is that here at IU, I don't forced on or tied down to many things. After I was accepted I was awarded direct admission (DA) to The School of Informatics and Computing (SOIC). The school has a great program of which I was ecstatic to be a part. Several students are jumping on board a great bandwagon of innovation and education. I signed up for the honors introductory course, H101, and I quickly found out that the field was not for me.
At this point in time, I started to freak out. I have never before committed to doing something (such as committing to graduating with a degree from SOIC just by being a DA) and not followed through with it. I feel like I will be letting down so many people, uprooting everything I once thought I had set in stone, and have to start from the very beginning. I was left at the corner of Lost & Confused.
Alas, none of this was happening. I wasn't letting everyone down. I came to realize that the people around me are all cheering for my happiness, even my SOIC advisor! Certainly I was nervous to tell her that I was no longer interested in the same major, but I worried for nothing. I presented her with my honest thoughts and she was more than willing to help me navigate in the right direction. For what feels like the first time in my life, I was able to make a decision that was best for me without feeling guilty or concerned about what my peers think. My major is my decision, and it is my job to love it!
Right now I am unsure what route I will take. I was a private tutor for four years and I love teaching. I share a very similar passion for math, specifically trigonometry and calculus. I realize that I don't need to decide today (another hard concept for me to grab onto). Whatever I choose, I will make sure that I test out the waters and love diving in.