No expectations. Just be. :D

OMG I cannot express to you how mad I am! Whew. So, I just wrote this whole blog post perfectly, I accidently press ONE BUTTON, and it all goes away. All of it. I lost it all. And my words were perfect :( So I am sorry if this one isn't as good, but just know that I just spent an hour typing and I am trying to remember my words. :(

Okay, so right now I am in my little cubicle at my internship in downtown Indy! It's the Marion County Republican Headquarters office. I come in from 9-5 on weekdays. I haven't been doing much lately, just sending letters/emails, organizing, reading the paper...but I will be writing a weekly newsletter for them, and hopefully other journalistic things! But today is very slow. Which is why I am writing this. I feel so old sitting at my desk and stuff! Here is a pic hahaha:

Oh boy. But I'm not old. I'm only 19. haha and that's a really weird face^ muahh.

Anyway, I wanted to take a look back at my freshman experience (which just happened.. so lucky for you is fresh in my mind). One of the biggest things I learned is this:

Have no expectations. I thought that I would meet my best friend, go to 10 parties, get 15 guys' numbers, and have a well rounded group of girl and guy friends to roll with..all within the first couple of weeks. This is a little bit of an exaggeration..but for my point's sake, I was a little disappointed. I felt alone. No one knew me-no one knew that I do Kristen Wiig Impressions from SNL, or that I am very sarcastic, or that I have a boyfriend, or that I love being awkward to make people laugh. I was away from my best friend and boyfriend, so really all that I had was myself. And that's how everyone else was too. You are definitely NOT alone. Everyone starts their freshman year out in the same clean slate. I realized that you have to look for open parties to go to, and the girls you go out with don't know your limits or how you are yet, and it is a HUGE adjustment living with a roommate. But, those are all things you will figure out! And if you don't expect anything, it can be really fun figuring them out. Just be you, and if someone doesn't like it, you don't have to be friends with them. You basically are starting over in the social world (except if you are going to hang out with all your high school friends and that's it--which i do not recommend!). Just be you and give people a chance! You will see where your friends are and slowly figure out what you want to do. 

Another thing I want to point out is this: In college, there is no such thing as "popular." Okay, well except the basketball players. But it's weird, like there are 40,000+ people here. So, no one really cares that you were the most popular football/basketball/track player at your school because so was everyone else. IU picks from the top. So, you all have that in common. Now, you are on bottom. College isn't about building your reputation, it's about YOU. This experience is for YOU. You will figure out what you want to do, who you want to be, and make friends that you will keep for the rest of your life. Everything you do here is for you. So, no one will recognize you if you are an anchor on the school TV station (like me) or if you are the lead in one of the IU plays, or play a sport here. Yeah, some people in that field will, but for the most part, everyone is just worried about themselves. So yes, you are a really wittle bitty fish in a freaking large ass pool! But that's a good thing! If you make a mistake, no one will know. If you break up with your girlfriend/boyfriend, no one is going to talk about it. If you had a fight with your friend, no one will know, because no one cares! This may sound a little depressing, but it's sooo not! This is college, and this is YOU. It's all about you. So get in there, meet new people, live it up, study HARD, and let your life just take you away! 



(I was gonna put a bunch of pics from my freshman year on here, but they won't upload-this is the only one that did! Maybe that's saying something, idk.)



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